Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Do You Ever Feel Like You're Barely Hanging On.....

It has been about a month since I've blogged - I guess I was busy with other things. I was working from to 8-5 every day & so once I got home, I guess there was always something else to do. The important word in that last sentence is that I WAS working. As of yesterday at around 3:30 I have once again joined the ranks of the unemployed. But let me go back & explain that better....

Almost a month ago (which was only about 3 weeks after I started my job) the doctor that I was working for started ranting & raving about how the clinic wasn't doing enough business, we weren't seeing enough patients & that we weren't making him enough money. Two weeks before Christmas he sat us all down & explained that if we didn't start doing more business then he would cut one person's hours down to 4 days a week....then I would go to 4 days a week & so on until business picked up. There was never any mention of anyone being let go, although I did wonder why in the world he hired me if they weren't doing enough business. I was told by my co-workers that he was a nut, so I didn't think too much of it. Especially not when the woman I worked with volunteered to start working only 4 days a week. How silly of me to think that things would be okay.

Monday, in our lovely area of Mississippi we had a little ice storm. Nothing major but it did leave the roads a little icy. I had told the good doctor that because of slippery roads, I wouldn't be in at 8 but once things started to melt that I would venture out & I could come in around lunch. I called the office at 9:15 that morning to check that we were gonna be open & verify that I was coming in around lunch & was told by the doc "we aren't very busy, so you don't need to come in today or Tuesday....& call me about coming in on Wednesday". Click. Phone hung up. Cue me beginning to worry. I wouldn't have minded a nice "snow" day on Monday, but once you get into having Tuesday off & then possibly Wednesday, I'm starting to see a serious dent in my paycheck! Oh what a laugh. Oh how things were about to change.

I called on Tuesday afternoon to see about coming in on Wednesday (as I was told to do) & I was told by the doctor "We aren't doing enough business right now & we don't need you anymore. Your paycheck will be ready on Thursday - you can come pick it up or we can mail it to you". Click. Phone hung up. Cue me in a state of panic because I'm pretty sure I was just let go. I called the lady that I worked with in the office; she has worked with him for 5 years, she knows him. Her translation of what he had said to me on the phone was pretty much what I expected - no more job for me. Just like that. I was a member of the working world on Friday, had a snow day on Monday & by Tuesday I was unemployed again. What in the world?!?

So now I'm having one of those....moments, maybe? Maybe you wouldn't call it a moment. I'm having one of those times where I am kind of clinging to the promises of Jeremiah 29:11 & Hebrews 11:1 - "For I know the plans I have for you" declared the Lord "plans to prosper you & not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope & a future".... "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for, being convinced of what we do not see". I am hanging on to those verses because at this exact moment., I'm having trouble seeing much of a plan. This is one of those times where I want to ask the Lord "see, I know you have this whole plan set out & you know how it is all gonna work out...could you maybe give me an idea of what that plan is, because I'm feeling pretty lost right now". Alas, like that second verse says, you've got to have faith, even in the things you can't see. And I have faith that the Lord does have a plan for me, so I'm hanging on to the faith right now...even if things seems so crazy & strange & unsure. If you're reading this, you can add me to your prayer list. I'm gonna need prayer as I start this whole job search all over again.

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